Boys ‘Round Here

Oh boy. Here we go.

As any teen girl, I’ve had my fair share of crushes. Some short-lived, some lasting a full school year and one carrying throughout middle school. Speaking from personal experience, a girl with a crush can be delusional and go absolutely insane from the mere thought of being with “her guy”. But why?

From a psychological standpoint, hormones and cognitive dissonance play a huge role in the feeling we get involving crushes, especially as teenagers. Looking away from the cause of these feelings, however, why do we have to act so crazy? Why do we need to impress boys? Why can’t we just be ourselves?

This question truly came to me this year as I fell hard for a guy. Like, REALLY hard. Like, I still haven’t gotten over him completely. I found myself acting different around him and trying to constantly impress him, but I had to take a step back and reevaluate what was gong on; I was neglecting my friends and going absolutely insane because all I ever worried about was being with him.

After spring break, it became clear to me that forcing myself to not like him would be the best option. My friends were far more important than a silly little crush that would probably end up nowhere. I went into a depression after that, with other factors included. Although it was one of the worst times of this year, I am so thankful I got to experience it and grow from that. But, to this day, I still find it difficult to not get lost in the thought of being with him.

Girls, you don’t need a boyfriend. Boys won’t validate your life or benefit your reputation. If you come across someone who truly complements you and is your better half, then by all means, go for it. But don’t go searching for someone you only want for status. Focus on your school, friends, family and yourself. You have the rest of your life to find your soulmate.

It’s Summertime…

…and the livin’ is easy.

With the school year coming to a close, I have a lot to reflect on as far as how this year went. This year certainly had its low (VERY low) points, but it also had amazing moments. Here are some great things that happened this year:

1. I made a ton of friends.
2. I maintained a 4.0 GPA.
3. I became editor-in-chief of my yearbook staff.
4. I got into the dual enrollment program.
5. I got my driver’s license.
6. I became more self-aware.
7. I started to be more healthy.
8. I got confirmed and got so much closer to God.
9. I discovered my worth and that boys aren’t everything.

I will miss this year dearly, as I learned so much about myself and the world. I pray that next year won’t be as stressful as I anticipate and I will be as successful as I was this year. I’m excited for what the future holds, I just hope I don’t get too overwhelmed. I hope to be able to juggle yearbook, a job, AP classes and college classes all at the same time. I better enjoy my free time while I still have it. Adulthood is right around the corner.

Attempt #12

Every so often, I feel the need to start blogging to share the thoughts of my unhinged mind with the world. Every so often, I try to fulfill that need by actually starting a blog. And every so often, I forget about it and delete it.

As a journalism student, it is imperative that I have strong writing skills. Joining the yearbook staff next year will require me to write several stories that intrigue the reader as they will keep the stories in that book for a lifetime. I find that my writing is only mediocre, and I wish to change that. Perhaps through this blog.

I am unsure as to what this blog will become, but I am having one of those “every so oftens” again. This may blossom into something I use frequently, or it may go into the trash as my 11 other attempts did. Maybe it will be the ticket to my success in the future as a well-known magazine editor, or maybe it will be a simple way to keep track of my life throughout the coming years of high school.

Regardless of what happens, it will surely be a learning experience. Here’s to whatever becomes of this.